Month: April 2012
As I was looking at my calendar recently, a thought hit me that I often try to avoid thinking about – my children are growing up, and there’s nothing I can do about it. I’ve already watched one leave the nest, get married, and have children of her own. I thought I would surely die when she was gone, but somehow I survived having others here at home that still need me. But I look at my four children that are still here at home and wonder where all the time has gone. I have memorized their sleeping faces in their beds a million times, kissed countless boo-boos, tried to hug away broken hearts, and thanked God for every single second I have with them. It is so hard to fathom how quickly it all goes by. One day you are holding them so close to you as they sleep in your arms and whisper, “Mommy, I love you.” Before you can blink, you are looking up at them because they’ve grown taller than you, and they are offering you a hug instead. The days just go way too quickly and the years pass before you realize. That is why you have to care for them, nurture them, teach them as God has said, “Train a child in the way he should go, and when he is old he will not turn from it.” (Proverbs 22:6 NIV).
I will always pray for my children’s health, their safety, and their happiness, but my biggest prayer for them is that they follow Jesus for all of their days. I pray that they don’t do as I say or as I do, for I am not perfect. Rather, I pray they do what Jesus says and as Jesus did. For Jesus loves them more than I ever can and He is with them all the times that I am not. I may hurt them with my words when I am angry, when I am tired and don’t feel like listening, or when I don’t have enough patience with them, but Jesus will never hurt them. He always has time to listen, He is always patient, and He is never angry. He is perfect and is their perfect example when we, their earthly parents are nowhere near it and are struggling ourselves and calling out to our Heavenly Father for guidance.
My prayer for my children is that they always look to their Heavenly Father before they look to me, that they open their hearts and minds to what He is trying to teach them, and that they know that I love them as much as a human heart can love, but that Jesus loves them more.
For every day that I have the privilege of walking this earth, I learn a new lesson that God places in my path over and over until I get the point. When I finally open my eyes finally, I wonder why I never saw what He was trying to teach me long before my lightbulb switched on. My most recent lesson was one that I have known for a long time, but now has an even deeper meaning than it did last year, last week, or even yesterday. God places certain people in our lives at just the right time to stay just long enough for His purpose, and then they move on. We have experinced this many times in the last few years, but the last few months this lesson has been a tough one to swallow because we didn’t understand and didn’t want to accept the loss of others in our life. But here we are, months down the road, and God is making it clearer by the day that He has a different path chosen for us. We trusted Him, but we still were gripped with fear of the unknown and working through the emotions of starting a new life elsewhere.
That new life is proving to be better than I ever imagined because I am trusting in Him. He is leading the way and opening new doors every day. When the fear begins to creep in, I look to Him for the answer which always comes…. just not always when I want it to because my Father knows better than me. While I am busy trying to solve my own problems, He is quietly taking care of things. Then suddenly, I wake up one day and look back and see parts of the Master’s plan that in my own misery I just couldn’t see. It is such an amazing feeling when I let Him take over and I just get myself out of His way!
God continues to teach me daily, and I pray to Him that I stay out of His way. I pray that He uses me with whatever I have. I don’t have money or fancy cars or many things of monetary value, but what I have I will share with others and use for His glory.
Lord, I pray that I use everything within my heart to share any knowledge I have that may help someone, to give compassion to those who are hurting, to listen to those who need my ears, to share whatever I have with others who need it more, and to give love to those who just need to be loved. My biggest prayer of all is that I do it all with a spirit of humility with nothing to gain for myself. Amen.