Month: January 2012
There is a burning deep inside me for others to know what my heart is really like. Sometimes it bothers me to the core when someone around me just can’t or won’t see what is going on within my mind no matter how loud I am trying to show it or shout it, and that their opinion of me is so totally wrong. Letting these things get to me brings absolutely nothing good to me or anyone else, of course. All it does is hinder the energy I could be spending on something else that is worth my while because the only One that will ever understand my heart and mind fully is God. He is the only One that I need to talk with, listen to, and follow completely. Everyone else is a sinner just like me. So why should I be looking to anyone else for approval? Our human nature is to want others to like us, to trust us, to love us. It is a constant struggle to remind myself that if someone doesn’t like me or love me – it’s okay. The One and only One that matters is my Father in Heaven. With Him directing my life, those that follow His path WILL love me because we are brothers and sisters through Him. What more could I possibly want?
Lord, please help me to remember that You are the only One that matters and help me to listen to Your direction in all that I do. Amen.
Isn’t it amazing how you hear a song and are instantly transported back in time to a younger age when everything seemed so simple and the world was at your fingertips? I remember the days of knob-turning stereos, 33 and 45 rpm records and reading the album covers from front to back to memorize the words of every song and absorb everything about the artist. Those days may be long gone, but as a song came on the Classic Rock station last night that my husband was blaring as he worked, I was suddenly 10 years old again dancing in my Mama’s and Daddy’s room listening to that song and singing with a hairbrush. Oh – what a feeling! But the next feeling I had topped that one. I was overcome with the sudden need to connect with that little girl again, and as I did, I heard a voice in my head say, “I was watching you then…. and I’m watching you now.” Simple as that. God reminded me that as I was reliving the memory, He was, too because He was there with me as I danced with abandon with that hairbrush with my only worry being who I was going to play with at recess the next day. He knew even then what the future held for me and He knew He would be there with me through it all.
I have lost many people in my life since that day, but One who has never left me is God. I’ve lost all my grandparents, a sister, aunt, uncles, cousins, and even my earthly Father. But though I have strayed at various times in my life, God – my Heavenly Father – has never left me. God indeed uses any tool necessary to remind His children that He is still here and in control – even a Rock n Roll song!
“Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be terrified; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.” Joshus 1:9