Month: March 2011
As I sit here in my bedroom with my husband by my side, my little girl playing in the floor, my kids scattered throughout the house, I am overwhelmed with what gifts God has given me to enjoy tonight. And yet – I still have a fear within my heart that has resided in me for quite some time. I know most of you would think that it is the fear of my son’s cancer coming back – but that’s not it. A fear I struggle with daily is wasted time, wasted opportunities, thoughts of “am I doing enough?” I don’t want to waste anything about my life; I did enough of that in the past where I didn’t see my greatest blessings right in front of me. I searched in all the wrong places for peace, for love, for acceptance – God has saved me more times than I could ever count in my life. For many times, right before I hit rock bottom, he brought me up out of that mood, that situation, that desperation… whatever it was at the time. The sad part is that I brought so many things on myself, as most of us do.
But my God is bigger than that. He LOVES me – even ME. I don’t want to get up every day and have no purpose. I don’t want to spend an entire day without helping someone or reaching out to one who needs me. I want to know when I leave this world, that I accepted the challenge to speak to the ones who may not want to listen, to love the seemingly unlovable, to try to be like Jesus. I don’t want to be these things to bring glory to myself, for God knows the motives of my heart and it would do me no good to pretend. I want to see the goodness in people rather than looking for the bad which oftentimes gets way more attention.
Do you wake up and think of all of the blessings around you that God didn’t have to place into your life? Even Jonathan’s cancer turned out to be a blessing. Yes – you read that right. We were brought to our knees, brought to God’s feet to worship Him for wrapping our boy in His arms and still having room to wrap His arms around us, too. He cut through all of the frivolity of life and reached straight into our heart and taught us to believe and to have faith even when we cried in agony and exhaustion. Through the crying, we found release. Through the long nights, we leaned on Him. Through the long months, we were lifted up in prayer by strangers, family, and friends.
So now, here I sit at home with my family. I know many who are home tonight looking for their blessings or struggling. I pray that they can start tonight with the little things… the sun rising in the morning, the hot water for that shower, the car starting with no problem, the smile from a stranger. And I pray that I can wake up tomorrow and say or do something that will push someone into God’s waiting arms. It is such a comforting place to be. It will overwhelm you at the love that you feel when you truly give yourself over to those arms of love wrapped around you.
Take a moment and look up the song, “Blessings” by Laura Story. Amazing message!
In watching the news along with the rest of you over the last several days, I have hurt for our world and the destruction that people are having to endure. Every time you turn on the television, you are hearing of new earthquakes, nuclear meltdown scares, wars, and protests. At first, I became afraid along with many of you for what could happen because I let earthly fears seep in. I have heard and read comments from others about the end of the world being near and have seen fear in the eyes of some for that possibility. To that I say, “what are you so afraid of?”
God tells us in the Bible that the end is drawing near. He also tells us how to be prepared and gives us final instructions in 1 Thessalonians 4 and 5. Why then, should any of us be surprised? Because things appear to have gotten worse here in our world? God did not intend for us to suddenly be afraid and begin preparing our hearts and souls at the last minute in order to spend eternity with Him. He instructs us all throughout the Bible to always be ready. He tells us in 1 Thessalonians that “the day of the Lord will come like a thief in the night”. So none of us are to suddenly panic thinking that the end is near. God intended for us to always be ready and to live our entire lives continually preparing our hearts and souls so that when He returns, we will be lifted into the air to be with our Lord forever. FOREVER!!! That is such a hard word for us to grasp. Wouldn’t it be wonderful to finally be in God’s kingdom to live forever with perfect peace and love?
What is there to be afraid of if you are obeying God’s commands in living your life? I want my friends, my children, my family to be singing “Sweet Hallelujah!” with me as we get excited that the end of war, pain, precious children dying, hurt, anger, murder will all come to an end when our Lord God returns! He is PERFECT. He is our LORD, SAVIOR, PRINCE OF PEACE. He is the Alpha and Omega – the beginning and the end. And He will never leave us. He tells us clearly in Matthew 28:19,20 what we are to do: “Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost:20Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen.” There it is in black and white! Look it up for yourself! “…lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world.” He didn’t say “I’m with you sometimes” or “I’m with you only when you’re good” or “I’m with you until things get bad down there on earth then I’m leaving you” . NO – He said “even unto the end of the world.”
So tell me now, what are you so afraid of?!?